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I woke up in the middle of the night upset because I could feel my foot starting to hurt again. It comes, once or twice, every year. Starting at the foot/ankle area, feeling as if I'd tweaked it or something, then rising up my leg and my foot solidifying until I can't put much weight on my right foot.

But this year, it's been the worst. This year, it didn't start at my foot. It started at my hand and my wrist. Same side, the right one. It's the most physical pain I have ever felt. It's felt like someone was pulling my hand off my wrist. Five days.

It's been getting better and I thought it was over with, that this year was the Year of the Hand, but now it's moved to my foot.

I'm trying to just let go, not fight the pain, listen to it until it tells me what I'm suppose to hear.